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The City And The Ghost
03:59
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Tonight I need the bright lights, still got her face on my mind.
Heading where the talk is cheap and I'm dressed to a "t" so they won't notice me.
It's warm for October and I've got the windows down.
The skyline whispers her promises, the same lie each night.
But I force myself to believe...
And I swore it'd be different but how could it be?
What I came to escape is right here inside of me.
The city's a desert with photographic stars.
Each pretty face is just a mirage, and my mouth's full of sand again.
But I force myself to believe, across the river's the cure for what's sick inside of me.
And I swore it'd be different but how could it be?
What I came to escape is right here inside of me.
I look in the mirror past the buildings, the sky's getting light.
Another piece of my innocence is the admission I paid there tonight.
Slow down past her exit though it makes me sick,
and I imagine her saying, "You're better than this...you're better than this."
And I swore it'd be different but how could it be?
What I came to escape is right here inside of me.
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Waste My Time
02:46
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Did you think that it would end up this way - a single shadow cast in a leading role?
I've got my suitcase by the door packed with secrets he'll never know.
We laid down, you said, "Boy, don't ever let me go."
Now I'm writing all the things we couldn't show.
I'm trying not to waste my time tonight,
but honey all the wrong things feel so right.
I should have said I loved you but I just said I understand.
Trying hard to keep my mind occupied, on the road for at least six weeks this time.
But satisfaction is the death of desire; baby I'm not satisfied.
I came home with wood stacked in my arms,
then found out you found a new way to keep warm.
I'm trying not to waste my time tonight
But honey all the wrong things feel so right.
I should have said I loved you but I just said I understand.
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Ms. Shapes
03:10
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We parked the car on the lower east side and that's when she caught my eye.
She dressed so scandalous, but girls like that don't mess with guys like us
and I need to to know her name.
When I hit that floor, gonna give her more than she bargained for.
Hey, you know, love how your body flows.
Hey, you know, let's see how far this goes.
Tension so thick, girl I can't wait
to see how well your moves translate.
Think you're more than I can take.
Now I'm staring so hard she's gotta feel it.
Baby this ain't the look of love.
Chassis like a Cadillac, curves so tight that I might crash
but hot damn, what a way to go.
We meet on the floor.
She's never seen moves like this before.
Heading for the door, gonna give her more than she bargained for.
Hey, you know, love how your body flows.
Hey, you know, let's see how far this goes.
Tension so thick, girl I can't wait
to see how well your moves translate.
Think you're more than I can take.
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Whole Again
03:58
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I've left this place many times before, but tonight
tonight's the first I've meant goodbye.
'Cause this town I grew up in, the streets that I know,
they are paved with my failures, the seeds that I've sewn, I know
I won't get another try to make things right.
All my life I've searched for something to make me whole again.
The perfect words, I've found, are better left unsaid.
I've driven this road many times before, but tonight
tonight's the first I know inside
that the towns I've not been to to, the streets I don't know
hold my hopes and my somedays, the stories unfold, I know
I've lost so much to live this life, but I'll be alright.
All my life I've searched for something to make me whole again.
The perfect words, I've found, are better left unsaid.
And all my life I've had that something to make me whole again.
Been through it all to find it in me in the end.
I still go back to that day and I think about
how you came in my life and saved me from myself.
You gave all you had and all you didn't.
I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for all our years
and it's clear I would've died without you.
You loved me when I couldn't love myself.
You're the dream I can't replace. Some wrongs just can't be erased.
But it's been brighter since the dawn. One look back, I'm moving on.
I finally see the light, it won't be long.
But I had to live every word of this song.
All my life I've searched for something to make me whole again.
The perfect words, I've found, are better left unsaid.
And all my life I've had that something to make me whole again.
Been through it all to find it in me in the end.
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Walk With Me
04:16
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I walk up the staircase and through the door
to find the light has beat me there.
It's stretched across her hair and in her eyes.
She just smiles and it's all she needs to say and I feel fine.
All the moments in my life have led to this.
My mouth forfeits my words,
a dedication song to her.
Will you walk with me?
'Cause I can't see just where I'm meant to be.
Replay the scene over and over
and never change a thing.
Will you walk with me?
She walks down the hallway and through the door
to find the light is waiting there,
and it's more than I can bear to look away.
And I just smile. It's all I need to say for her to see
that it's moments just like these that I need.
My mouth forfeits my words.
She may not be mine, but I'm all hers.
Will you walk with me?
'Cause I can't see just where I'm meant to be.
Replay the scene over and over
and never change a thing.
Will you walk with me?
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6. |
Life On Life's Terms
03:33
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It was a Sunday when his phone rang,
"I know how busy you have been, I'm just calling to check in."
Heard his voice, I knew then it happened again.
This one was different, I knew he meant it,
but the pain's always the same.
Heart of gold he'll take the blame, and better days is losing it's ring.
If this means something at all...
I, I know we're not like them -
Couldn't be if we tried.
Life on life's terms ain't easy.
Told me the story, all too familiar.
It was a ghost from the past, really thought this one would last.
Baby boy, you deserve so much more.
I hate to see it happen to a friend.
Why do lesser guys win in the end?
She won't know what she had until you're gone.
She lost a good one.
I've found that when it all turns to a mess,
look back and see it happened for the best.
Try to keep your chin up through the tests.
You've just gotta have faith.
If this means something at all...
I, I know we're not like them -
Couldn't be if we tried.
Life on life's terms ain't easy,
just gotta take it in stride.
And I'm by your side, you've been by mind
through the good and the bad, yeah.
And all those nights when we'd just drive,
and we felt all alone in the world.
Look out tonight and we were right.
Look how far we've come and
now is our time.
I, I know we're not like them -
Couldn't be if we tried.
Life on life's terms ain't easy,
just gotta take it in stride.
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Too Late For Us
03:42
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It was a fair fight when our lives were in it together,
but it turned one sided when you decided to leave.
So baby spare me your bedroom stories
of all your new love affairs.
I'd love to say I'm happy for you but, I'm sorry,
I'm just not there.
It's too late (it's too late),
Too late for us (it's too late for us).
When you said "we're done"
guess done wasn't done enough.
Well I tried for year to get my head together,
while you cried your tears in someone else's bed.
Now I know it all happens for a reason,
like every passing season we all have to change.
And sometimes your biggest failures become your biggest saviors.
Mistakes have to be made.
It's too late (it's too late),
Too late for us (it's too late for us).
When you said "we're done"
guess done wasn't done enough.
But baby it's too late (it's too late),
Too late for us (it's too late for us).
What's done is done and done is done enough.
Well I know you're not as strong as you like to let on,
and you'll miss me when I'm not there.
All your nights of desperation can't replace a conversation
with someone who really cares.
But I guess I shouldn't blame you, in fact I ought to thank you
for helping me write this song.
If this album tops the Billboard I think I'll save a quarter
to call you and let you know.
It's too late (it's too late),
Too late for us (it's too late for us).
When you said "we're done"
guess done wasn't done enough.
But baby it's too late (it's too late),
Too late for us (it's too late for us).
What's done is done and done is done enough.
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8. |
Broken Door
03:36
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It's raining tonight, and the smell of the breeze through my window,
it reminds me of when I was a child.
And my mind drifts away, I close my eyes, it's like I'm almost there.
Things felt like magic then.
And I think to myself...
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
Every day it feels more like the magic's behind me.
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
It was simple back then, looking out of this same window,
back when I was a child.
Before my friends passes away,
before my trust had to be earned,
and that first drink that lasted ten years.
And I think to myself...
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
Every day it feels more like the magic's behind me .
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
Summer days lying in the grass, the world seemed bigger then.
I could never find a word for that feeling, until she told me her name.
It's what perfect means to me.
She smiled at me last night, rubbing her finger in the palm of her hand.
That's when I knew that I was dreaming.
I can't dream anymore.
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
Every day it feels more like the magic's behind me.
If I knew my father then I would ask
if he felt like this at 23.
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9. |
Without You
02:45
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Did you think we'd let this slide?
We tried to leave the past behind us, but here we go again.
Keep on writing songs about us (you could never be one of us)
You can run, but you can't hide from your lies.
Without, without you, we are everything you said we couldn't be
Without, without you, we're everything you'll never be.
We knew something wasn't right
the first time we saw that look in your eyes, but there you go again.
Thinking everybody owes you (it's your ego that controls you).
You're whole persona is a contrived, you're a lie.
Without, without you, we are everything you said we couldn't be.
Without, without you, we're everything you'll never be.
And if we see you on the street
you better look down at your feet.
You need to understand that this is not a game.
You'll feel the pain.
Without, without you, we are everything you said we couldn't be.
Without, without you, we're everything you'll never be.
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Meant To Be
03:45
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A patient glance, a forgiving mind
but she always wonders where he is this time.
He lives every day in a different key
with harmonies and melodies.
A couple more weeks and he'll be home again.
The promise holds true.
When he has the means, her hopes and her dreams
will be reality.
He'll always know that it's meant to be.
She's the only girl that he will ever need.
Pockets have holes, can't sift his last
to afford a postcard attached to a stamp.
She deserves a companion when he's not around,
maybe with white paws and spots of brown.
A couple more weeks and he'll be home again.
The promise holds true.
When he has the means, her hopes and her dreams
will be reality.
He'll always know that it's meant to be.
She's the only girl that he will ever need.
The calendar is marked until September.
There's one more thing for her to remember.
However many miles away he'll go, there's one thing that's for sure -
the road will always lead to you.
The promise holds true.
When he has the means, her hopes and her dreams
will be reality.
He'll always know that it's meant to be.
She's the only girl that he will ever need.
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11. |
Michael
04:33
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Got the news the other day,
a child's innocence taken away.
(You were never scared, I'll always care)
Grandson to son and a memory we'll never lose in time.
Am I making you proud of me?
'Cause I know you can hear me.
You were too young, too fast for you to go
and now I don't understand why.
I can't stand to watch a mother and father cry.
I look up to you.
Four years your younger brother caused me
to always wonder why.
(If it's the only way, I'll talk to you)
Home is not home, I swear I'll still see you.
I miss you.
Am I making you proud of me?
'Cause I know you can hear this.
You were too young, too fast for you to go
and now I don't understand why.
I can't stand to watch a mother and father cry.
I look up to you.
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