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One Thousand Cries

by Despair

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1.
The scar it remains on your very own. Innocent and fragile. Left so alone. No simple words could ease my mind. Your clenched fist I fear when your open arms should be my place to hide. One thousand tears from one thousand cries. I hope there's forgiveness over time. Still you planted a seed to repeat your crimes. And I know it first hand because I feel it in my life. My father's pain became my pain. You never heard one thousand cries. To the one who gave me life. You never heard my cries.
2.
Turncoat 01:58
I see you, the real you. So I turn away in disgust. You left me, you broke me. All the times we shared were so fake. The disguise you wore it had me fooled. I believed in you. Turncoat. Look me in the eye. Turncoat. You buried me alive. It will never be the same. I will never be the same. Now you're one of them. The ones we despised.
3.
Stoneface 02:53
So there you are. Still you're nothing at all. No substance contained. All emotions tucked away. Held restrained. Internal bleeding. No one can ever see beyond stoneface. Unleash the hostage locked within yourself. Now breathe some life. For the first time, lift your fears.
4.
Decay 02:17
Born into a world consumed by despair. Lash out to mask your fears. Conquer all with kill as your aim. Beat down on the frail and feel no shame. Now I'm drowning every day with the weight of the world pouring down on me. It's dissolving me, it depletes me. When you sink down so far nothing makes you laugh. All your virtue and life force is ripped in half. Darkness is so thick. You could never smile again. Last cut by those closest leaves a scar you could never mend. I'll just watch us all decay. Thrown into this cycle. Conveying us to just wither away. No brightness. Just our decay.
5.
I'll walk alone, even in the presence of so many lives I've touched. I'm the black sheep. Now the outcast as you change and rearrange. My mindset won't die. Left in the dust through the test of time. All the laughs and smiles have turned to cold stares. This day of atonement, recollections on what once was. Now you're just a blur, set in my mind's eye. Used to be the same. To me inside you died. You died.
6.
A madman comes along with something new. Naive now needs something to cling to. The madman smiles. He'll play your friend. The boy he feels alive so blind to what he intends. Lies are told. Stories to deceive. Of course the boy, he believes. Invade the mind. I'll make you think like me. Knowing all along the boy's too charmed to see. He's falling prey to this trap, evil trap. Follow the leader. Individuals no more. Just a robot with no mind. Now you're caught in his trap. Others will play your bullshit games but I see right through you. Money hungry mind. Controlling manipulator. Is that your better way?
7.
All Deceived 03:35
In time they will all see what you truly are. And it makes me sick to watch you bask in all the glory, so undeserved. You don't feel what's been burnt so deeply within my heart, and now lives in me, which fortifies me. I won't be the next to wrap around your finger. I won't bow down to you. Take your place, assume your role. Your artificial efforts, they can't blind me. Faker, deceiver, the simulator. Does anybody else see? To me you mean nothing. All deceived.
8.
I'll walk alone, even in the presence of so many lives I've touched. I'm the black sheep. Now the outcast as you change and rearrange. My mindset won't die. Left in the dust through the test of time. All the laughs and smiles have turned to cold stares. This day of atonement, recollections on what once was. Now you're just a blur, set in my mind's eye. Used to be the same. To me inside you died. You died.
9.
Sacrifice is so simple in the face of death. You do nothing to refrain. The choice to indulge is the choice to destroy. Just to satisfy your bullshit needs, your bullshit greed. You, yes you, are the one I blame. Death stares in your eyes, never to realize. You do nothing to refrain. I drench you. Drown in vein, to bare the burden for all their pain. The burden, it falls on you.
10.
Crawl (Live) 04:25
Tear at me. Stretch my skin. Pierce these eyes. Self inflicted damage. I'm yours, drain me. Take me for all I'm worth. You are my everything, my life is yours. Take me, I'm yours. I've become my prey, left with no self worth. Stripped from inside, severed from deep within myself. I'm nothing. Numb. All for you. I breathe for you, I see only you, I suffer for you. The more pain that you induce, the closer I feel to you. Crawl, I'd crawl for you. Rip me apart.
11.
I see you, the real you. So I turn away in disgust. You left me, you broke me. All the times we shared were so fake. The disguise you wore it had me fooled. I believed in you. Turncoat. Look me in the eye. Turncoat. You buried me alive. It will never be the same. I will never be the same. Now you're one of them. The ones we despised.
12.
Rust (Live) 03:32
Open wound, blood consumed, cleansing me. Left to rot, pulse forgot, torment me. Plagued and gagged, seclusion calls. Rust away, the grey it befalls. Your touch burns, my pores scream, painstaking, shivering. So what are you, because only you can make me feel this way. Smiles unfold, fate which we hold shatters with one thousand breaks. Tormenting me. My lungs collapse as I take my last gasp.
13.
So there you are. Still you're nothing at all. No substance contained. All emotions tucked away. Held restrained. Internal bleeding. No one can ever see beyond stoneface. Unleash the hostage locked within yourself. Now breathe some life. For the first time, lift your fears.
14.
The image you project. The ego it creates makes my blood boil, as I watch you imitate. Pattern life. Exterior, it blends. Interior, no it can't pretend. Attention, you feed off it. Your self expression is nothingness. Now I mock you and your pathetic life. Your fashion show is nothingness. Drown in your pattern life. I hope you fucking drown. Your image means nothing.

credits

released June 1, 1996

Vocals – Scott Vogel
Bass – Brian Fligger
Drums – Phil
Guitar – Matt Dente
Guitar – Joe Garlipp

Live Photos – John McKaig
Layout and Design - Josh Grabelle

Tracks 1-7 recorded on January 28th & 29th, 1995, at Border City Studios, Niagara Falls, NY.
Engineered by Dennis Fura.
Tracks 8-14 recorded live at The Showplace Theatre in Buffalo, NY, on April 2, 1996.

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